there is no me without you. i've always liked to think of myself as "strong personality" (wouldn't we all?). what does that mean anyway... "strong personality"?
fuck the pretense. a full year of fallow creative impulses. a full three years of feeling worthless. i need to start feeling independent again in some way. i need to have some meaning that isn't fully determined by someone else.
confession. i've turned into a bit of an alcoholic in the past two years. a little alcohol, i find, can unlock inhibitions and allow for some honesty behind all this civil bullshit. too much alcohol, however, can interfere with one's ability to type in a semi-efficient way.
so, it's a beginning in any event. a renaissance, if you will (shit i'm ridiculous). until more sober times, goodnight. katherine 10:01 PM
